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This Cricket’s Singing Stone!

You keep the search yet, you’ll never find for beneath the mosses she sleeps all throughout.  Still unknown to many for she’s feared for the lost of the foreign for though she sleeps, she takes all in.  The curtains of the mosses keeps everything in.  For beneath is the land that once has been put into sleep way when time was still young and history was still in the mouth of the wise.  Yet, in due time, you will find for just underneath, all quietly, she lies.

You’ve willed your way and you’re opt to come back.  In due time, a reunion of two spirits.  A unification that was long been told by the wise that’s yet to come, for you still soar in the midst of wander.  You’ve been running searches and still you do.  You might see one, you might see none.  You might find paths that will make you confuse.  For whatever it is and whatever awaits, I still pray on this cricket’s singing stone that one day, you’ll find your way back.  I will not force, I will not stand.  There’ll be no voice but a little prayer will find you and guide you and will lighten your path back to your stream.  Let it flow.  Let it will your way for this dries never and fervently flows back in this direction.  My love awaits you as my prayer guides you.  May you flourish in time and soon be back home.

Lead your path and wander as you please but by the end of it all, you’ll realize that the flourish land you’ve been searching all this time is just right where you left, here on this cricket’s singing stone.


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Posted by on March 12, 2013 in Lyrics of Life


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Daily Prompt: Seven Days

Daily Prompt: Seven Days: You wake up tomorrow morning to find all your plans have been cancelled for the next seven days and $10,000 on your dresser. Tell us about your week.

$10,000 is already a very big money here in the country and if I have to spend it within the next seven days, it’s never gonna be thrown to waste.  Here, my life is just as plain as the road that I keep tracking down.  It’s just as clean as the blue sky above and it’s just as open as the book I love reading over and over again.

In my first fifteen years of life, I’ve lived grandiosely.  My parents provided me and my siblings more than adequate and I truly satisfied myself.  I enjoyed my fairytale-like childhood and all my dolls and preppy dresses which I never realized how expensive they were.  I got most of what I needed and I enjoyed most of what I wanted, but not recently.

Years turned pages and so as my life.  Everything I used to enjoy were all gone.  After my Doctor Dad died, I indirectly turned to be a breadwinner until such time, I realized that I already was, and I am now.  I work hard in this big city to provide my family their daily needs.  I work hard to pay my family’s undying debts and so as mine.  I work hard to find myself, reach my goals and to somehow twist my reality.  I wish I could make things better.  Though I know that I can never bring back what my family used to have but at least, I could give my mother a better life for her elderly years.  I love her so much and I’ll do everything for her.  I came here in this big city for her.  She’s always been part of my dreams and for all my failures and accomplishments, she’s always there.  My big sister as well for she had done a lot of sacrifices for me when I was still in College.  She gave up her life just to have me finish and now that I successfully graduated from College and was able to get a well compensating job, I’m always gonna be there to pick her up at times she drops.  Part of my life are my sister-like two nieces for the big one has been living with us all her life treating my mother, who happened to be her grandmother, as her second mother as well, while the little one has been so used rushing at home at times she hated theirs for she treats my big sister, who happened to be her aunt, as her second mother.  These two little kids are actually biologically sisters and they just love hanging around with us.

If given a chance, a one in a million chance, if only unselfish and just seeing a $10,000 worth of money in my closet, I’ll spend it with them.  I’ll have it fractioned.  The first $2,000 will go for the family debt and so as mine.  The second will be for my big sister in putting up a small business.  The third will go to the bank, $1,000 for my mother’s savings and the other $1,000 for mine.  The fourth will be for a small unit here in the city for I want to take them all with me and just leave the province for good, and for buying the necessary things for settling down.  And the last part, will be for my two nieces’ education here in the city.  They would need the money very soon.

They worth more than $10,000!

They worth more than $10,000!

Engrandeng Bakasyon, Vacaccion Grande, Grand Vacation or however you call it.  That’s all that will first come to mind, I’m sure.  $10,000 is already a very big money here in the country and if I have to spend it within the next seven days, definitely, it will never be gone to waste.  I can travel my country very soon.  I can even travel the whole world if given the chance but, with all I experienced with my family especially during the difficult years when we lost everything we got, I wouldn’t want a grand vacation anymore.  A well compensating stable job, a little unit I can call my own, to lessen my debts, and to keep my family with me all in good health — they all worth more than $10,000!


Posted by on March 7, 2013 in Daily Prompt


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Daily Prompt: All Grown Up

Daily Prompt: All Grown Up: When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?

AT MY AGE, I still go back to my yesterdays when I was still a little child for no matter how grown up I am now, I still miss my fixation stage and the times I spent with my mother, crack jokes with her, act childishly, boisterously laugh with my big sister, hanging out with  my high school friends, and above all, my undisputed fifteen years of being with my late twin sister.  They’re so sweet and familiar yet my present is quite more upbeat and adventurous though.  In the past, I can hardly recall the times I acted so grown up already for there were a lot of instances when I had to stand for what I believe in and they all took a real an adrenalin rush.  Partly I enjoyed, partly I got scared and partly I felt lonely and just wanted to run home.  A lot just happened in my life and funny how I can still recall most of them while the other some, I just can hardly remember.

My photo taken yearback December 2009!

My photo taken year back December 2009!

YET, IF THERE’S this first time I ever felt like a real grown up, I would say that, it was the time I moved away from home and got myself here in Metro Manila for a Call Center job.  It was an adventure for me for, though I had already previously visited Manila, I still had never settled for good and that time, I had to and it surely excited me.  Just to say that, though I was still in my own country, the place was still very foreign and strange.  I got culture shocked at first time for life here was just so far different from my province.  Here, life was so fast yet back in my hometown, all was easy and lay-back.  I wasn’t used in a severe traffic, then I had to hurry for I’ll be late.  I had to work in Makati and the travel was long.  Everything here was just too expensive and I was still on a very tight budget.  Overall, lifestyle was really different.  I also had to be very mindful for I never knew whom to trust.  Life here in this big city was so difficult and I can never count the number of times I used to say, “I’m quitting!” and I just wanted to go back home yet I just can’t for home was just miles away.  I can never forget my many sleepless nights and crying times.  It took time for me to adjust and thank GOD, I was able to.  He helped me out in this big city and He guided me all along.  He was my only refuge and I got no one to hold on but Him.  And here now, I’m all grown up now.  I’m already stronger and I already learned a lot from this sole journey.  This is the only place I’ve stayed longer than usual except for my hometown.  Though I can never deny that I easily get depressed lately and I once again have this feeling of being homesick and just want to go back home but I’m fighting it because — it’s all here!  My life is all here.  I have already settled here and I already made it for three straight years.  There’s just no room for quitting anymore.  Besides, my work is here, my circle of friends, my relatives, my life.

My photo taken last January 2013!

My photo taken last January 2013!

GOD is indeed good.  He gave me adequately.  He never came too early nor too late.  And, I’ll say it again — HE DOES NOT COME TOO EARLY NOR TOO LATE!


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Posted by on March 7, 2013 in Daily Prompt


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Daily Prompt: Teachable Moment

Daily Prompt: Teachable Moment

You have to learn a new skill. Do you prefer to read about it, watch someone else do it, hear someone describe it, or try it yourself?

wallclimbingI GET AMAZED seeing people doing things right in front of me like they mastered it all along.  They seemed like doing it all their life and having me doing it the first time would really catch attention.  At times, it’s embarrassing yet definitely worth stopping for.

I PREFER TO DO THINGS all in a different way.  I may ask assistance from others for I appreciate their ideas and I want them to be part of it yet, I always have my own different way of making a twist on things and adding my own blend and aroma personalizing things attaching my signature on things and events whether they turn appealing to look at, successful in reality, or “epic fails” stuff — I don’t really care.  I still ask permissions on things I never own, which I need at the instance.  I also ask a lot of questions to gather their thoughts, sum them up and create my own amazing idea and apply it in real life.

TIMES ARE INEVITABLE though wherein you’re already loaded with ideas and all will of doing things yet you just can’t make a good start for small little unrelated things just slowly arise preventing you from pursuing what you wanna do.  At times like this, I get depressed and all my grandiose dreams all twirling and twirling all over my head are now fleeting and my will and ego subside.  Well, I guess, things just happen wherein plans should never just be left out as plans.  There should be another amazing way of backtracking to continue performing one’s idea in one way or another.

I AM A PERSON with severe moodswings due to Bipolarism and I always find a way to do things I wanna do in one way or another and usually, I’m able to apply them in ways I never planned them and by the end of the day, I amaze myself for appying it in a more creative right-on-the-spot way.


Posted by on February 11, 2013 in Daily Prompt


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Winding Road…

WHAT IF THE SMOOTH ROADS turn rough as the short walks turn long and winding? What if everything you thought you have at hand are no longer with you? What if you’re already losing the precious materials you’ve been holding on to life? What if your dream is no longer rational because it’s really empty when you thought it was not?
I’VE BEEN TRACKING DOWN this road forever and everytime I make a step, the ground shakes.  The road keeps moving away as this walk takes longer.  It takes a hard pull to drag me off the soil as it keeps breaking apart right from my very eye.  I’m now losing my empty cup as my boxes are slowly fallin’ off the ridge.  Worse is, I’m now fallin’ off my years as well.
EVERYTHING I’M HOLDIN’ ON are now gone to waste.  They’re all dropping off right from my very hands.  I thought it’s alright.  I thought it will be fine but things still turned out the same.  I’m still tracking down the avenue of the damned.
WHY SHOULD IT BE AS COMPLICATED as it is? It’s all broken into million pieces as the sun soaks into the sea to give way to darkness. It’s all wrecked and hollow pulling me down hard as this formless air of desperation is cropping me inside out. It’s so undeniable. Worse is, the more it centers into my attention, the more it grows heavier like it just simply drops me onto my knees as my eyes water with me not noticing it.
I’VE BEEN A STRANGER FOREVER and I’ve always been alone.  No matter how I head myself off on another way, I still keep ending up on the same street.
I GUESS IT’S JUST IT.  I guess it’s just forever broken.  I so hate winding roads. They tear me apart!
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Posted by on August 12, 2011 in The Episodes


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