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The Worlds Inside People

What appeals pretty for me is almost non-physical.

I distant myself from people. I never go where the crowd goes. Not because I’m shy or insecure about the possibility of being out of place, but because what I long for is usually never found in the crowd.

I don’t like small talk. It usually drains me, making me charge myself back through introversion. I long for a real conversation. A deep one. An intellectual sort of talk. For me, socializing involves just one person and me, a cup of coffee, make that extra large if not refillable, a good ambiance, and long hours of just sitting there around the table.

What appeals pretty for me is almost non-physical. I’m more interested on what lies beneath the surface. I’m more on how a person speaks his mind, and on how he expresses his hidden self out.

I am fascinated by human behaviour. I am fascinated by the massive submerged part of human iceberg. I am fascinated by the strange patterns that differentiate every single person.

Every single person has an untold short story. Every single person has Moons, rivers and unfinished chapters. Every single person has a past that built his present. Every single person has a little nook filled with dreams and regrets.

I want to know what’s on someone’s subconscious. Someone’s makes and breaks; and, the reason why someone’s doing the shit he’s doing. I want to know someone’s overt and covert behaviour. Those that are known and unknown to the self. I want to know where someone’s mind goes when it wanders; and, which part of the world attracts him once I hand over a globe.

Surfacing through humanity wouldn’t take me any further. Yet, diving through someone’s ocean of hidden worlds takes a lot courage. I guess, I’d rather have a share of the latter than just by simply asking, “Hi! How are you?” Then get nothing at all after he replies, “Good!”

 
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Posted by on May 2, 2017 in Lyrics of Life

 

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Daily Prompt: Seven Days

Daily Prompt: Seven Days: You wake up tomorrow morning to find all your plans have been cancelled for the next seven days and $10,000 on your dresser. Tell us about your week.

$10,000 is already a very big money here in the country and if I have to spend it within the next seven days, it’s never gonna be thrown to waste.  Here, my life is just as plain as the road that I keep tracking down.  It’s just as clean as the blue sky above and it’s just as open as the book I love reading over and over again.

In my first fifteen years of life, I’ve lived grandiosely.  My parents provided me and my siblings more than adequate and I truly satisfied myself.  I enjoyed my fairytale-like childhood and all my dolls and preppy dresses which I never realized how expensive they were.  I got most of what I needed and I enjoyed most of what I wanted, but not recently.

Years turned pages and so as my life.  Everything I used to enjoy were all gone.  After my Doctor Dad died, I indirectly turned to be a breadwinner until such time, I realized that I already was, and I am now.  I work hard in this big city to provide my family their daily needs.  I work hard to pay my family’s undying debts and so as mine.  I work hard to find myself, reach my goals and to somehow twist my reality.  I wish I could make things better.  Though I know that I can never bring back what my family used to have but at least, I could give my mother a better life for her elderly years.  I love her so much and I’ll do everything for her.  I came here in this big city for her.  She’s always been part of my dreams and for all my failures and accomplishments, she’s always there.  My big sister as well for she had done a lot of sacrifices for me when I was still in College.  She gave up her life just to have me finish and now that I successfully graduated from College and was able to get a well compensating job, I’m always gonna be there to pick her up at times she drops.  Part of my life are my sister-like two nieces for the big one has been living with us all her life treating my mother, who happened to be her grandmother, as her second mother as well, while the little one has been so used rushing at home at times she hated theirs for she treats my big sister, who happened to be her aunt, as her second mother.  These two little kids are actually biologically sisters and they just love hanging around with us.

If given a chance, a one in a million chance, if only unselfish and just seeing a $10,000 worth of money in my closet, I’ll spend it with them.  I’ll have it fractioned.  The first $2,000 will go for the family debt and so as mine.  The second will be for my big sister in putting up a small business.  The third will go to the bank, $1,000 for my mother’s savings and the other $1,000 for mine.  The fourth will be for a small unit here in the city for I want to take them all with me and just leave the province for good, and for buying the necessary things for settling down.  And the last part, will be for my two nieces’ education here in the city.  They would need the money very soon.

They worth more than $10,000!

They worth more than $10,000!

Engrandeng Bakasyon, Vacaccion Grande, Grand Vacation or however you call it.  That’s all that will first come to mind, I’m sure.  $10,000 is already a very big money here in the country and if I have to spend it within the next seven days, definitely, it will never be gone to waste.  I can travel my country very soon.  I can even travel the whole world if given the chance but, with all I experienced with my family especially during the difficult years when we lost everything we got, I wouldn’t want a grand vacation anymore.  A well compensating stable job, a little unit I can call my own, to lessen my debts, and to keep my family with me all in good health — they all worth more than $10,000!

 
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Posted by on March 7, 2013 in Daily Prompt

 

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Daily Prompt: Teachable Moment

Daily Prompt: Teachable Moment

You have to learn a new skill. Do you prefer to read about it, watch someone else do it, hear someone describe it, or try it yourself?

wallclimbingI GET AMAZED seeing people doing things right in front of me like they mastered it all along.  They seemed like doing it all their life and having me doing it the first time would really catch attention.  At times, it’s embarrassing yet definitely worth stopping for.

I PREFER TO DO THINGS all in a different way.  I may ask assistance from others for I appreciate their ideas and I want them to be part of it yet, I always have my own different way of making a twist on things and adding my own blend and aroma personalizing things attaching my signature on things and events whether they turn appealing to look at, successful in reality, or “epic fails” stuff — I don’t really care.  I still ask permissions on things I never own, which I need at the instance.  I also ask a lot of questions to gather their thoughts, sum them up and create my own amazing idea and apply it in real life.

TIMES ARE INEVITABLE though wherein you’re already loaded with ideas and all will of doing things yet you just can’t make a good start for small little unrelated things just slowly arise preventing you from pursuing what you wanna do.  At times like this, I get depressed and all my grandiose dreams all twirling and twirling all over my head are now fleeting and my will and ego subside.  Well, I guess, things just happen wherein plans should never just be left out as plans.  There should be another amazing way of backtracking to continue performing one’s idea in one way or another.

I AM A PERSON with severe moodswings due to Bipolarism and I always find a way to do things I wanna do in one way or another and usually, I’m able to apply them in ways I never planned them and by the end of the day, I amaze myself for appying it in a more creative right-on-the-spot way.

 
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Posted by on February 11, 2013 in Daily Prompt

 

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