THIS IS A PICTURE taken 2 years ago when I visited my God-daughter on the day she was born. After how many years, almost a decade, it was just the only time I was able to hold a new born child again and it felt so awesome. She’s very tiny and fragile where you’ll be scared of holding her for the scare of falling her off or breaking her up yet I can never forget the thrill I felt that time. It felt like she’s my child and that she’s born on this earth for me. The thrill was really different and every child you hold gives you different thrills which are very unique. A thrill that makes you want to live your life even longer.
AS A LOT OF SONGS clearly emphasized on their lyrics that when you love a child, you don’t just forgive seven times seven but it’s seven times seventy-one. I sometimes get to the point where I’m torn into half for I long for a child of my own believing that she’s the only one who would complete me but on the other minute, I get to the point where I thank God for I got no child yet for I can even hardly manage myself at times depression hit me down the drain; how much more having a child with me. I don’t think I could ever handle it and it would be very unfair for her for her mother is always depressed instead of taking good care of her, raising her, her mother is assisted by her grandmother instead for she’s Bipolar.
I GET TO THE POINT where I feel sorry for myself ending up this way yet having this picture and everytime I look at it, I always feel so whole again. It encourages me to keep living my life the way I should and that one day, all these depression will be completely gone and once that happen, I know, I’ll be ready for it. By that time, I’ll have a child of my own and I’ll nourish her and give her all the love in the world.
An entry for worpress.com’s Weekly Photo Challenge: Kiss with the theme, “Kiss. There are a lot of ways to capture a kiss, between two people – lovers, family, friends; two animals, or even just the sending or receiving of a kiss”